Love, Tears, & Coffee by Melza Jane

Author:Melza Jane [Jane, Melza]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: romance
Publisher: UNKNOWN
Published: 2018-08-07T23:00:00+00:00

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CHAPTER NINE

She read through Laura’s letter again. It still said the same things, the things it said the first time she’d read it, and all the times afterwards. The words never changed. They still made her cry, just like they’d done on the first reading, and every time since. That first time, she hadn’t believed it, and she’d wandered through the house in a daze, walking in and out of rooms for no particular reason, trying to make sense of the words on the page. It was only when she got to the bedroom she realized it was true. The clutter of makeup and hairpins Laura kept on her side of the bed was gone.

It was the same in the bathroom. Where there had been two toothbrushes in the cup on the shelf, now there was just one. Laura’s hairbrush, the one full of her hair, with the handle wrapped in the hairbands she used at work, it was gone, too. She’d pushed everything over, to close the gap where it had been, but Emily could still tell, it was one of those things she’d gotten used to seeing. She’d liked it there, mixed in with all her stuff. It made her feel part of a couple. Now it was gone. Just like Laura.

The letter was about doubt, about not believing her anymore. She didn’t believe Emily was ever going to tell her colleagues or her family about their relationship. Everything Emily said was excuses, words with no meaning. That was what the letter said, over and over again, repeated in so many different ways. What it meant, what it said, was that if Emily wasn’t able tell anybody about their relationship, it must mean she was ashamed of it, ashamed of her true self, ashamed of being a lesbian. Ashamed of Laura.

How could she tell Laura none of this was true? She had. That was the point, in all their arguments, every time, she’d been accused of all these things, and she’d said they weren’t true. But nothing changed, every day she came home with the same story, the same excuses, so Laura stopped believing her and started believing she didn’t love her. And it was today. Of all the days Laura could have chosen to leave, it was the day she’d finally told someone at work about their relationship.

Everything Laura had said and done over the past few days looked different now. Everything needed to be reinterpreted. When had she made the decision? The last night together—the intensity of their sex—was it because Laura had already made her mind up? And their last morning together, travelling to work, she’d thought it had been a moment of perfect love, but now she wasn’t so sure. Had Laura been saying goodbye, giving her one final memory before delivering the ultimate, cruel blow? Or was it a spontaneous decision, made after they’d parted? The letter didn’t say, and all Emily could do was analyze every word and every action from the last few days, interrogating them for new meanings.

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